a little less procrastination...

On Monday mornings, when I sit around in the office for the off chance that my coworkers who are putting the paper together to call about something or another (the Houston office computer doesn't have the capabilities to do production, but I have to be available in case they have a question)... so, I have a lot of time to visit other people's blogs and read them and see what they do, and usually they are very interesting.

some of them, like this blog that links to my friend in Corsica's blog, which describes the life of a late-twenties-early-thirties mom of two who lives in Paris and works in an office who ALSO is an artist and trying to build up a portfolio at the same time... make me feel LAZY and to a smaller degree, guilty, because I, who am supposed to be this aspiring writer full of good ideas and poems and personal and witty essays/rants (otherwise known as my columns that don't make it in the paper)... and I write nothing of the sort. I have many ideas floating around in my head, but they never seem to make it onto paper... my first masterpiece (aka first novel) has stymied after the first chapter... the characters I spent so much time thinking about don't seem as alive as they first did. (actually sometimes when working on my story, which takes place in Vancouver around UBC, I get to thinking of all the wonderful little places/restaurants/etc in the area, and I end up thinking about the place more than the characters... I imagine myself there instead of imagining my characers)

So anyways, after reading her blog I usually have guilt feelings about all the things I'm NOT doing, and go through this phase of feverishly writing down something, anything, even if it deserves to be written or not. And then I realise that not only do I have a job that keeps me working at weird hours without a fixed schedule and not only am I involved with various things in my church and not only have I started another course, the same old problem arises... I refuse to give up my social life. So maybe I do it to myself...

Is it too late for a New Year's resolution?