when we were young...

In an ongoing effort to dejunk our house, I was sorting through yet another one of my boxes labelled "papers". No description of what kind of papers... just papers... it's always a surprise opening one of those boxes for who knows what kind of adventure or trip down memory lane the papers will take me on...

Yesterday's box contained wedding cards (yes, I really do save everything... and it drives M nuts). As I sat on the ground reading the cards, I was overwhelmed by the wishes and blessings showered on us by loved ones...and I am not ashamed to admit that tears came to my eyes... And I remembered how we started out this new journey together under Grace and with the support of so many people. The cards were proof that. And I couldn't bear to part with them just yet...

It's hard to believe that almost three year have gone by since that wonderful day when we were both dressed up to the nines, surrounded by family and friends, and enjoying the day with them... And now our time alone, just the two of us, is coming to an end, and part of me is sad to have this time go...

People will say, "It's a natural part of life" or "It's the next step" but for a person who wasn't going to get married until she was 30 (even if then) and had never for a moment thought about children of her own (though I love my nieces and nephews dearly)... this is a catastrophic(in a good way) event.

People have told us that this will change our lives, and I'm the kind of person who HATES change. I like being just M and me... I have loved the three years we've been married and the two years we were together before that. We have fun together - we laugh, we yell, we have "discussions", we hang out, we talk, we share, we have adventures, and we've grown together (as individuals and as a couple) in amazing ways these past three years...

And yet, change is coming...

This is the next adventure we are taking on in our journey together... not "just" husband and wife anymore, but now Dad and Mom (scary thought! :) Sometimes we ask ourselves "Are we ready?"... the same question we asked ourselves three years ago walking back up the aisle. The big things in life make you feel so young and so inexperienced. And just when you get used to one thing... along comes another...

And when we're old and gray we'll look back on these days "when we were young"... after MANY YEARS of change and adventures and growing together...

So I say, probably sounding braver than I feel, let the journey continue... (not that I have any choice at this point in time, with only three months left to go)